Finished

I could have been better
I could have been more
Had you not decided to quell me
Had you not chosen to take my dreams
I could have soared among the clouds
I could have but I didn't
My visions were made dim
Things were lost that I can never regain
But it's partly my fault too
Because I allowed it
When I never should have.

Things are different now
Though you don't see the tide has changed
You don't see the new birth
What blindness there is in your eyes
Blinded by anger and selfishness
You stumble through life
With no concept of others
Only of yourself
Play the pity party one last time
Because that's all that
You are going to get from me
One last word
One last moment in which you can speak
Before I silence everything.

Cutting the false bond
Never felt so right before
Not like it does now
It was long overdue
But came just at the right moment
It's time for you to know your place
To choke on words
You once used to hurt
And swallow the poison that you
Fed me all of my life
But here's the catch
This is all your own
It's based in truth
And is even harder to swallow
Like razor blades
And deep inside
I hope it cuts the same.

Running Free

I'm finished with being held down
Being grasped by invisible chains
Bearing down on my potential and future
I've broken free from their iron grip
Begun to stretch my wings
I know in my heart that I remember how to fly
Someone taught me once
And I'm not afraid to do it again
I'm not afraid of falling
Because there's always someone to catch me
I will not let myself be held down
I shall not be captured again
Without my permission
I'm done living with fear in my heart
Done with the pain of thinking 'what-if'
It's time to take the plunge
To do what I know that I can
Time to break free
And run wildly through life
Without any notion of where I'm going
Because now, I'll never be alone

Endless Possibilities

Your hand, resting upon mine in the darkness of the bedroom
Warm and soft - makes me feel like I am safe
I know that I am home when I can hear you breathe
And watch the rise and fall of your chest in the soft light
Filtering through the windows and dusting across the covers
I never realized there would be more than before
The depth of the bond that was created when I gave you everything
I never realized that this is where I would always want to be
And that it is simply not a temporary feeling.
Next to you, I feel is just where I belong
It has become my place in this world and feels right
I've taken on a new role as a wife, a partner and a lover
In ways and depths that I never thought were even possible.
It makes me wonder of the things that are to come
And the ways that my life will change
The moments that we'll share as husband and wife
As father and mother, as even more than that
There are endless possibilities to what we have
And I will keep them and hold them close to my heart
Each and every one, even though my thoughts
Cannot encompass them all.

Strangers

We are strangers, you and I
Supposed to share a bond deeper than love
We walk this world as strangers
I've been given more by those who once were strangers
Treated better by an unknown person on the street
When I am supposed to feel this connection to you
And call you a name which is held for those dear
I cannot fathom giving that to you or sharing it with you
You do not even know me, what's important to me
You have no idea what goes on in my daily life
Or even care to see what goes on under the surface
You hide behind your selfishness so as not to expose
The empty windows of your soul
The broken panes of glass that have been shattered by bitterness
And swept away with anger
I do no know you, I do not care to anymore
I gave you everything you asked
You are a stranger to me and that's all you'll ever be
And even that - is more than you deserve.

For @hidingout2

Getting thinner, going stronger, going harder
More than what you thought you could
More than you ever knew that you would have to
Your heart is on your sleeve
Beating hard and strong for those around you
But you wear yourself thin taking care of everyone.
Take a moment and breathe, beautiful:
Know that this is just a passing time
And you will come through - stronger, better
It's a hard weight on your shoulders
Just remember that you are never alone
There is warmth in the sunshine
Just as there is warmth in a stranger's smile
Your beautiful heart beats for everyone you care for
It's big and open, bearing so much burden
Know that you will make it through and you can do this
No matter how many times you think you can't...
Beleive in yourself
More importantly...take care of yourself
Remember to breathe a little each day
Crack a smile when it doesn't seem possible
And savor the little moments of comfort
No matter how briefly they are there
Look into the mirror and see strength and love
A woman whose hands have done only good and cared for the world
See the resolve behind your eyes and know that you can...
It seems like so much upon you right now
But just remember, you are never alone - never.

Band

A small weight with lots of meaning
Always subconciously remembered and ever there
It rests so sofly upon the skin
Shining, glimmering in the light
Much like the amount of importance of what is symbolizes
An ever unbroken circle, never ending
It is a reflection of love and commitment
Of a deep seated bond made from two hearts becoming one
It rests there, ever present as a memorial
To promises and entrustments placed with another
What's behind it matters, what it encircles matters
Everything it symbolizes matters
It is more than just a band, so much more.

The Berth of Commitment - Forever

Just for this moment
I can see why they couldn't explain it
Why there was so much that I was missing
But didn't know how to describe it.
This bond, this love
Has taken hold of all I am
And changed everything for good
In ways that you can only see
With the eyes of maturity
That comes with making the commitment
Of marriage and togetherness.
What does anything else matter?
Two now one, stronger than before
More than before and yet the same heart
I could dance in his eyes forever
Let his laugh linger in my heart
Like a symphony of joy
That's what I plan to do
Forever and always
This is the journey
This is the path
This is our marriage
And I for one, cannot wait
To see what doors will be opened
And what things there are
Yet to come.