Far out to Sea

Can I guide you through
This frozen artic
The wasteland you have
Lost yourself in?
Remind you of the man
I know and love
Regardless of what you feel
Can I show you the sun
And how the stars can dance
With laughter
Though your eyes are
Filled with tears?
Can I reach you
Or are you too far out
To sea?

Jealous Revelations

I've always wondered
Why yours was saved and cured
While mine was taken away
I've always been secretly jealous
That you didn't have to endure my pain
And it all seemed to work out
In the end and you have
What I have lost
And so desperately felt I needed.

But then I realized some things
Without this loss and pain
I would not have grown
Would not have married
Or fallen in love so deeply
Without this pain
I would not have been able to forge
The muscle needed
To stand up for myself
And stop the abide once and for all.

I also realized this:
I probably was given this pain
I was given this journey
Because I could handle it
And you could not.
So while I believe that some things
Will always be a tragedy
That broke my heart
Seeds were sewn to bloom
And make my life richer and fuller
Despite what I have lost.

Summer Storms & Stars

The night becomes younger
As the daylight grows older
Summer invades the spring
Scorching swiftly with oppressive heat
Sunny skies give way to
Dark clouds and clapping thunder
With scattered bolts
Illuminating the dark sky
And even without the storm
The night glows brighter
With lighter shades offset
By white blotchy clouds
Stars seem to shine
As if this were their season
To bathe the earth
With ancient glow.

Westward

Single palms and dark dirt mountains
Sparsely cover red land
Paved with roads of promise and enterprise
Once trodden as dirt by shooed hooves
And weathered Americans
Clinging to bright hope and shared dreams.
What comes from sacrifice
Is a home
Built on prayers and faith
Of brighter days and better tomorrows
'Tis the west
The land scouted by few
And held in the awe of many
A legacy left by steel and determination:
The frontier that is ever held
With wonderment and promise

I am a Writer

I have a deep seated need
For powerful alliteration
That moves mountains more than me
A love affair with the dash
That is commonly overlooked
For its extended continuation of the pause
By its crooked brother the comma.
I have a voice that
Speaks via Roman letters
Ascribed by a pen
I am a writer
And such is my calling
Nouns, verbs, adjectives
My tools to create the world
As seen through my own eyes.
A pen, a pen and not a sword
But rather a tool to illustrate
And unburden my soul
As the quiet seconds slip by.
They are my family, my tears
The words that fill the page
A reflection of my heard
And though they be but rambling
Sentences and syllables
Strung together on some form
They are my own - my solace, my peace
And forevermore they stay
The ink upon the page -
My etchings upon the subconscious of the world.

I Will Be There

I will be there
Even when you can't be there
For yourself
     - I will be there
No matter how long it takes
Regardless of what we have to weather
The time and space doesn't matter
     - I will be there

Bitter Enclosure

Do you ever have those day
Where it seems like curling up in a ball
And sobbing is something you think you need
To feel so trapped inside a box
Frustrated that there's no way out
Putting forth effort with minimal results?
This is my day, sometimes my life
I wish there were a key to this prison.

Better with Age

Spring reminds me
How green I am
How new life is
And the beautiful the days are
That I get to spend with you
How our love continues to
Spring anew each day
And that our road ahead
Is barely explored
This is new
We are new and green
And like a great oak
We can only grow stronger
And better with age.

Summer Skies

The night becomes younger
As the daylight grows older
Summer invades Spring
Scorching swiftly with oppressive heat
Sunny skies give way to
Dark clouds and clapping thunder
With scattered bolts
Illuminating the dark sky
And even without the storm
The night grows brighter
With lighter shades
Offset by white blotchy clouds
Stars seem to shine
As is this were their season
To bathe the Earth
With ancient splendor.

Icing

It's raining ice
A subtle reflection of my mood
Falling and striking down
Melting where it lands
Melting cold
Unlike the hot tears
That have flowed this morning
The detraction isn't enough
To note all that much difference
The rain has been hurt
Turned to ice
By the clouds that once
Held it safe.

Can You See the Stars?

I hope that wherever you are
You can see the stars as plainly as I
How brightly the belt of Orion stretches
Out across the sky
And Venus shines brightly down
Eclipsing the light of the north star.
I hope that you feel the same peace I do
Knowing that only time separates us
And one day we will see each other again
Walking hand in hand down the aisles of the stars
Like we were meant to here on earth.

Fade

Time fades the leaves to a soft brown
And the sun bleaches out the grass
To make way for the distance of winter
Greens gives way to shades of red and amber
Rain to snow and warmth to cold
Each it's own master of a season
A change, a fade from one to the other.

Sleepy Live Ode

When silence falls on darkened eyes
Memories of warmth in moonlight
Pervade the sleeping mind
Of shallow breaths and long kisses
Once partaken like forbidden ambrosia
In secret by a lake calm beneath the stars.

As the eyelids droop moments become dreams
Invading the subconscious with love and life
Deepening connection and bond
That already runs deep into the soul
And peace descends like snow
Falling gently on sleepy hearts of old.

Oh! To when love turns to memory
And fades from life to dreams
Caused by distance of two hearts
Bound by more than romance, sewn as one
But now to sleep and in dreams reunite
Until arms clench the breast of love once more.

Untitled

I'm going to miss you
More than I let on
Because I have to pretend
It's just another day
My world is complete
Though it's like living a lie
Because nothing is the same
Without you here with me.
It's just temporary
That I realize
But it feels so wrong
Going to an empty bed
To retire from an absent day...
But stoically I will face this time
Until it ends
Small sacrifices for great years ahead.

When you're gone

I always lock the door
When you're away
Every door
Including my heart
So as not to feel
As not to know
The emptiness inside
That's there when you go.

Hollow Woman

Hollow circles beneath your eyes
Show the lack of depth behind them
The sleepless nights spent alone
And fake smiles to hide the pain
You think no one sees your sneers of jealousy
The false bravado of superiority you put forth
Is just a mask to hide the emptiness
You think no one sees
You think no one knows
Because you've done it so long
That you want to beleive
The only one you're fooling is yourself
Your disguise falls like shattered glass around you
Reflecting like mirrors the faults
You so desperately try to hide
The empty moments that pervade your existence
And the envy you feel for those who do live
They tell the truth
Even though your lips refuse to speak it
Your lonely existence is your fault alone
Hold not another in consequence for your failure
We are the masters of our own destiny,
Clearly you have chosen yours.

Their Empty Words

They promised
Sunshine and rainbows
When we've learned
The true reality
Is bruises and scars
A deep pain that sees no sun
A burden of sorrow.

They said
Those around you
Will be your strength and life
But all they taught us
Is loss and heartache
Turning face in a moment
And collapsing hope
With harsh words that cut deep.

They fill your head
With illusions and dreams
Only to see them dashed
And broken by the bitter reality
We face every day
That steals out hope
And makes our spirits weak.

They told us all these things
We wanted to believe
But we knew better
We never promised anything
To one another
Only moving forward
With a bond called love
And holding each other up
On the strength within our hearts.