Things I Want To Say

There are words that need to be said
But I just can't seem to grasp them
Words of anger and resentment
Over everything you have done
Over what you didn't do or never will.

I don't understand if it if out of respect
That I can't tell you what's burried deep inside
Or just pure pity that I can't put you through it
But you've hurt me more than anything
Cut me deep because you don't care what matters to me.

I wish you could know love and peace
Rather than the bitterness and selfishness
That you surround yourself in
Because there is so much more to life
Then all you feel like you are a victim of.

You don't care about anyone or anything more than yourself
I wish I weren't blinded by the assumption
That I am supposed to love you regardless of anything
You've caused me so much pain
I wish that you weren't so self centered to see that.

You'll probably never know how much you've hurt me
I don't care to show you anyway, to give you that satisfaction
But one day when you look in the mirror
I hope that the monster and snake that you are
Stares back at you and reveals that you have no soul.

I'm free of your tyranny and lies, free of your grasp
I will not let you ruin what I have made for myself
Because what I have is beautiful and you should know,
No matter what, I will do whatever it takes to keep it
Even if it means taking you out of the picture entirely.

Yes, anger is a good word for it all
But I will not waste the energy on loathing you any longer.