I Will Never Be

I know there are things that I will never be

I will never be the most wild girl at the party

But rather the one everyone pulls aside

To ask advice and spill their secrets to.

I will never be the one to betray a trust

Because I could never do that

Deep inside I’m too loyal to my own heart

To do that to another person.

I will always be the safe option

The girl next door, the faithful wife

One who doesn’t question

But perhaps that makes me less of who I am.

Perhaps love makes me that way

Perhaps love makes me stupid.

I will never be the only one in the room you notice

I will never have your undying attention

These things I’ve come to realize

Midst words that sound so sweet

But words none-the-less.

I wish it were different

I wish I could be more than who I am

But that is wishful thinking

I can only be who I am

Nothing more, nothing less.

I will change as the days pass

And grow as a person

But I will never lose myself.

I will never be everything I’m not

Or anything for that matter

I suppose what I’m saying is

This is who and how I am

And this is how it’s going to stay

I don’t mean to say I won’t grow and change

But I cannot change what I am.