Their Empty Words

They promised
Sunshine and rainbows
When we've learned
The true reality
Is bruises and scars
A deep pain that sees no sun
A burden of sorrow.

They said
Those around you
Will be your strength and life
But all they taught us
Is loss and heartache
Turning face in a moment
And collapsing hope
With harsh words that cut deep.

They fill your head
With illusions and dreams
Only to see them dashed
And broken by the bitter reality
We face every day
That steals out hope
And makes our spirits weak.

They told us all these things
We wanted to believe
But we knew better
We never promised anything
To one another
Only moving forward
With a bond called love
And holding each other up
On the strength within our hearts.

Before You Wake

Before you wake up in the morning
I want you to know that I didn't miss
The tenderness in your voice as you left
Or the thoughtfulness you showed
By just doing the little things
Like forks...
It's good for you to have a break
Some freedom from this undertaking
But I know you don't see it that way.
Know that I will always be okay
Always be safe and careful
Loving you from wherever I am
To wherever you are
And that that will never change.
I never knew how lost without you
I could ever be
But I do now
But it's okay -
I know where your heart calls home...

Words

Some words should not have titles
They should remain unspoken
But whom am I to say
I breathe with my words
They are all I have...
Because no one seems to understand
Feelings which I can express:

Yes I am in pain
No it isn't you
I'm scared of what's to come
Scared of what is true
I don't know how to speak
Or tell you what I feel
I'm not sure I even know
I am at a loss for what is next
I'm scared of losing you

True Reflections

Never a smile
Always a curt
Straight mouthed sign
Of disappointed bitterness.
I hope you see the mirror
The glass you've so often
Tried to shatter with your coldness
Because it still reflects the truth
As it always will
That deep inside
You are hollow
You care for naught
And all things are clear
Because your own mask
Can't even hide
The empty soul
That resides within.

Mr. Amazing

Who knew that one could ride in

With roses in hand

And make my heart stop for a moment

To make the day a bit brighter

And make the fear pass away

Like a distant memory…

You truly are Mr. Amazing

The one who stole my heart

And keeps it safe next to your own

You’ll never see just who you are to me

Never know how much

I adore the moments when you’re near

And in so many ways

I can’t believe you’re mine

I don’t know what I would be

Without you in my life.

Shattered Bonds

If telling the truth
Means breaking bonds
That were meant to last a lifetime
Then the concept and trueness of love
Never existed in the first place.
If words can mean so little
Was there anything to salvage
From the start of this journey
Perhaps I was mistaken
In my idea of family
And what it should be truly
Perhaps I was naive enough
To think that sharing my feelings
Would actually have made it different
But deep inside I knew
There was no bond to save
No relationship worth rescuing
And thus we part ways
On two separate paths
When only one was intended.
I will not take back my words
Nor will I sacrifice my stance
Because for once
I know I'm right and just
And your footing is in the sand
And just so, it falters beneath your feet
Just as does your misconception
Of love and family
Two ideas that you construe
To suit your own needs
Rather than embracing them
For the beautiful things they really are.

Final Goodbye

I'm done with all the drama
The manipulation and crocodile tears
Finished with being put last
And never thought of as important.
I will not concede my stand
I'm through with trying to please
Because I finally know in every way
That it will never be enough for you.
What you've tried to ruin
I will salvage with my own bare hands
And what you've lost
Is more than you could ever fathom.
You made this choice, chose this path
And I will not stop you
I have turned my back to you
And if you want anything more
You can always ask
But I daresay that you will ever receive.
So bring yourself to this conclusion;
You have lost everything and more
I will have nothing more to do with you
I've written you off for now and always
It's time for you to know
The true meaning of the word goodbye.