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I couldn’t tell you if you asked

What I miss the most when you’re not here

It could be the smell of you after a long day

The softness of your hair beneath my hand

Or even the depth I see in your brown eyes

Each and every one of these things

I hold dear to me when you’re gone.

It’s the familiar that I miss the most

Of having you physically present

Just near enough to me so that I feel complete

Feel safe and like the world is right.

Each and every thing I fell in love with about you

I miss more and more each time you’re gone

This bond between us is deep and substantial

It’s almost surreal how wonderful it is

I can’t believe I’m so blessed to have you

And you can’t understand the depth my love for you

How much I miss you when you’re not here

And how much I truly do need you

As a part of my life.

Cherishing Your Memory

Time goes by and the leaves fall
Summer to autumn to winter
The frost begins and slowly conquers
A harvested feild before it's blanketed by snow.
There's something in the air that makes me
Miss you just a little bit more
Perhaps it's the thought of halloween bonfires
And trying to find one more trip
Out on the cooling waters of the lakes
But there's something there that makes me think
About all the time we spent together
And the moment that I will always miss.
I know you are there always, guiding me
And that I have never stopped loving you nor you me
But I think of what it would have been like
Had you not been stolen away from me so early
About seeing your grandchildren
And showing them the wonderful and kind
Gentle giant of a man that you were.
I keep you close to my heart in this season
The season of warm family and friends
Of parties and holiday celebrations
Because even though you aren't physically here
I know that you are always with me
Because you are a part of me
And I cherish your memory within my heart.
Know that you are loved and missed
More than words could ever express
And I know one thing more,
That in time, I will see you once again
And without wishing my life away
I look forward to that day.

Miss You

It doesn't feel right sitting here alone
Cooking for one is depressing
You have no idea how I long to
Test my head against your chest
And have your arm around me
Making me safe and warm.
Being apart makes me realize the depth
Of this eternal bond that we share.
My heart no longer beats as my own
But rather in sync with yours
And you are all I need with me.
Forget the comforts and luxuries
All I need is to be close to you
And that's all I ever will.
I think about your smile
And how our children will one day
Bear your same qualities that I adore
All the things that I see coming for us
Make me realize how much
We have in one another.
But without you here to share these thoughts,
I hold them in my heart
To make the distance between us
Appear just a little smaller
But I can't wait for you to return.
I shall give you a kiss for every moment
An 'I love you' for each hour
But I owe you so much more
For making me whole
And bringing light back into my heart.

Autumn

The smell of leaves
Decaying and crumbling on the ground
An intoxicating aroma
Filling every sense of myself
And turning me into an addict of the fall.
Scents of warm spices and warm drinks
Shared with friends and family
Bundled up in light jackets
Surrounded by the soft glow of candles
Lighting pumpkins with strewn faces
And cornucopias of plenty.
Horse drawn wagons filled with straw
Being pulled across darkened apple orchards
This is what fall is about
The moments of time
Surrounded in bold colors and warm glows
Of sun gleaming through trees
Shedding the leaves of growth
To make a blanket for the upcoming snow
And shelter the earth from the bitter winter
This is the season
This is the time of year
For hearts to glow and warm the soul
An amazing reflection of the days gone by
And the warmness of the days
Which are to come.

How Deep My Love

My love,
Do you see
How your doe eyes
Light up my smile
Make my fear melt
And are all
I ever want to see
For the rest
Of my life...
I don't think you know
Just how handsome
You really are
And how my love
For who you are
Inside and out
Will never ever fade
I love you
Is never enough
I will show you
Forever
Just how deep
You are
A part of my soul.

Promise Me

Promise me that your eyes will never wander
Your heart will never stray
That you will always be my cherished one
Loyal to our lives together and our commitment for forever.
Think of no one else as you would of me
I've given you my all
Just as it was meant to be.
In you I've found part of my soul
My life is whole and complete
I never want to lose this feeling of being whole
Bonded in ways I never assumed were possible
This is not to say I'm scared
Merely quite the thought
That I've given everything away
To be your one and only.
I do not need the world
Nor diamonds and roses received
Just promise me you'll always be
Just the one for me,
Loyal and true
And I promise that I'm yours until
The very last breath I have
Always and forever.
Just promise me you
And that's all I will ever need.

Lingering Thoughts

I don't know why it lingers
But there's still something there in the back of my head
This fear shouldn't be there
With the time that's passed
With the decisions I've conciously made
But age old fears are long to die
Making my mind run away with me
Thinking thoughts I wish were dead
But there they are, lingering
Swirlling around in my head.