Lady

So austere, so divine---
Once again your eyes flicker
Just barely catching mine
Like an old, forgotten Roman goddess
No one remembers the name to
You weave your way through
With self-loathing and pride
Your own walking contradiction
Of elegance and disgrace
Enough to fool the masses
But not enough to hide your shame
Weave your web of deceitful honesty
But remember the haunting flow
The farce is only the glare
That hides your face in our view
Do you think lady
You could paint that picture again
The one that fades into the sun?

Missing You

Missing you reminds me

That somewhere inside I’m human

That I am not as callous as once thought

Missing you means that my heart

Has not gone numb

Despite the pain throughout my life.

Missing you has taught me

What is really important in life

What makes my heart beat daily

Missing you is a moment in every day

Reminding me that you are still

One of the fondest memories of my heart.

Missing you has shown me

That I can be stronger than I ever knew

That I can make it through anything

Missing you has brought me peace

Because I know how much you loved me

And you taught me to love myself.

Love Me Tonight & Tomorrow

Spend time with me tonight

Come to bed with me

Lay down crisp sheets

Rest your head 'bout my soft breasts

Just be with me

Rest without distraction

Caress my body with your touch

Spoil me with sweet words

And love me with your hands

Sleep softly, holding me

Until faint sunlight breaks

Across naked flesh and twisted sheets

Wake with me to face the day

Telling me you love me

And you'll be here always.

Feelings

Race, race, race

No end in sight

Over analyzing

Over thinking

Confused—

Don’t know what

To feel, to say

To be

I just am.

Lost in a sea

Of thought

Of time

Of longing

Regret – no

Dismay – yes

Something is broken

I just don’t know

What it is

The hands on the clock

The beat of a heart?

No – none of these

But what?

I question

I find no answers

And I yearn for them

I want them

Though I wait

Nothing seems to come

I suppose a longer time

Must have to pass

Before I understand

But what must I

Undergo in this time?

Can my heart take it?

Yes, my heart is strong

My love even more

I just feel changes

And I know it’s

Just a valley

But right now

It seems so deep

Locked in winter

Locked in sleep.

What pains me most

Is the space between

The gap that lingers

On this long road

I just don’t understand

I don’t want

To be second

Though I don’t always

Need to be first

Why this conundrum?

Why these thoughts?

I never second guess

Nor do I now –

But I wonder

Why the space

That seems to linger?

I feel an absence

I don’t know

As to why

But it lingers

Nonetheless

In those few gentle moments

It doesn’t matter much

But in others

It feels so deep.

Maybe I feel too much

Maybe I am wrong

As so often

I seem to find myself,

But perhaps,

No – wrong

Waiting is the answer

Waiting is the key

I must wait

What else can I do?

So steadfast my heart

Beat gently

Beat slowly

Beat deeply

Hold to the precious

Few moments

And live through the space

Keep busy

Beep quiet

Hold true to your course

You know where it leads

And this

Among all things

Shall pass –

For @webkenny

When my mind turns
To thoughts of you
Me heart smiles.
To enjoy a few moments
By your side
Is worth more to me
Than a hundred diamonds,
Because those moment
Though however few they may be,
Are the sweetest moments of my day.
I would trade a thousand days
To wake up one morning
Inside your arms.

Who you are
Makes my heart wish so
And everything within me
Wants to be with you always
Whether you are sleeping
Or awake where I can see your smile.
To be with you
Is the greatest honor I have
To love you
Is my greatest privilege
And to be a part of your world
Is a dream come true---

My Song

My song is one of sorrow
Of heartache and loss
With deep notes of pain.

My song is one of love
Of romance and pleasure
With perfect echoes of harmony.

My song is one of change
Of twists and turns
With silences and peaks.

My song is one of anger
Of rages and passions
With sharp chords of fury.

My song is one of joy
Of highs and melodies
With lyrics filled with harmony.

My song is one of my own
Of my own voice and heart
With the window into my soul.

Waking Up With You

There is no place
That I would rather be
When the sun comes up
Then next to you
Listening to you breathe softly
Hearing your heartbeat
As I move closer.
To hold my body
Close to yours
Beneath the sheets
Generating comforting warmth.
Slipping in and out of sleep
Only to find you’re still there
Next to me
Sleeping away peacefully
And I’m in my own
Little piece of heaven.