Temptation

Sweet delicious watching
Waiting for the moment
Targeting each anticipation
Catching the passing glance
And making desire burn
Wanting but not yet obtaining
A simple game of cat and mouse
But ever so deviously delightful
Enticing...
Building up for a great release
That is just out of reach
But you can taste it on your lips
Feel it inside you
Burning away ever so much
Indeed, you're on the edge...

Lost & Confused

I feel lost
Like I want to curl up into a little ball
Cry my heart out with tears that won't end
Run away from the world
And hide somewhere safe
To feel like me again
Rather than this jumbled mess I've become
I don't know where I'm going
I've lost the place
Confused and tired, I don't know...
Where do I turn? What do I do?
My heart feels brittle like old paper
My head spins with thoughts unwarranted
I don't know where I am
But lost and confused
Along a road I am unfamiliar with...

Loving Deeply

Having never loved so deeply before
Sometimes it scares me
Sometimes I wonder if it is too good to be true
Contemplating love and trust
Being open and completely vulnerable...
Does it scare me?
Yes...
But it's time to embrace what is to come
With open arms and an open heart
One step at a time
Living moment by moment
Rather than in the past
Or with any second thoughts...
I will entertain them no more.

Lost Your Hold

Caught off guard and suddenly
You're playing my heart like a piano
Hitting every sharp note
Playing on every fear
Because you know me all too well,
You know where I'm vulnerable
Where to make it hurt the most
Where to cut the deepest...

You thought you had a hold
But I've moved on
I'm more than I was before
It may bother me for a moment
But unlike you think
It won't bother me for a lifetime
Bring on that knife you pose as words
My skin is thicker than it once was
I'm not as fragile as before.

I've been through hell and back
I survived
I can't say the same for you
Nor do I really care
Maybe realizing that I didn't care
Hurt you too much, cut too deep
All I can say to that --
Too bad, I don't care anymore.

Snake

To say that you're a chameleon would be flattery
You can't fool everyone, you don't fool me
I see past that fake exterior
I can see straight through the lies, the fake smiles, the warmness
Cold blooded as a snake, cunning like the viper
You wait to turn and strike the awaiting innocent
Watch out for my heel, it is not my fatal flaw
I've perfected all the insecurities you once knew of me
Be wary of my anger, it brews in silence and teeters on the edge
I will not hold it at bay when provoked
Let me give you an metaphor to dwell on
The eagle and the snake...
Be wary of your actions, be very keen
I will only have to strike once to end it all.

Miss You, Words Can't Say How Much

I want to lie next to you
But you aren't here
To feel the warmth of your breath
On my back and feel safe
But you're a million miles away
I can't tell you how much
That I miss you
Words can't express the thing
That's missing from inside my heart

I miss you
Words can't say how much
But for every mile,
My heart feels weaker
And every moment
My breath a little more shallow
I hate being away,
Not having you near
To hold me and kiss me good night

Hollow Butterfly

With each breath
She dies a little more
Her heart begins to darken
Her eyes lose all the light
She's dying slowly
But she doesn't know it
She's dying slowly
She doesn't realize she shows it

Her face is a beautiful
Elaborate woven mask
Of confidence and grace
Her heart is a broken glass
Pouring out sorrow and pain
Looking in the mirror
She doesn't know what she sees
She wonders what is real anymore
And doesn't know where to turn

To see the light inside her die
Is like seeing a butterflies wings
Torn from it's body
Like a baby bird
Who will never learn to fly
It pains me to see her die inside
Over and over again
A fragment more each moment
Dear butterfly
I will never clip your wings
No one else can unless you let them